it’s scary to get close to someone.

to open up to them.

telling them your deepest secrets and most vulnerable sides of you.

because in the moment it’s comforting knowing someone understands you,

knowing you are so close to be able to tell them almost everything.

and they say they won’t tell anyone, they promise, and you believe..

but then they leave.

the deepest most vulnerable parts of you are no longer secured.

the whole world could know without you telling them,

because promises aren’t always kept after a fall out.

they know you better than anyone else, and yet they’re gone, being able to tell your story with no hesitation.

and then you question ever opening up to someone again, because what if they leave too..

then there’s just more people to go telling your story,

more people seeing the most vulnerable sides of you,

never willing to forget them, holding you accountable even after you have changed.

and now i’m terrified to get so close to someone again.