i went from being your maid of honor,

to not even being in your wedding party.

i went from being your best friend,

to being nothing to you.

i went from someone you did everything with,

to someone you don’t even talk to.

i went from being someone you told everything to,

to being someone you’re closed off to.

i went from being your kids godmother,

to just being an aunt they might barely know.

i went from being your sister,

to a stranger.

you were supposed to be the second mom to my kids,

and now they’ll only know you from the stories i’ll share.

you were the reason i didn’t end myself,

and now you’re the reason i cry myself to sleep.

you were supposed to give advice to my kids,

and now you’ll just be a story i share about life lessons.

and i don’t know what i did,

or how it even came to this point.

because once i was your sister,

and now i’m just a void.