All That She Wrote

i miss you. i miss our friendship. i miss hearing all the little things you’d tell me. but i really miss who i was with you. i miss waking up happy and excited to go to school instead of dreading waking up. i miss laughing all the time instead of crying all the time. i…

I’m tired. Tired of acting stronger than I feel. Tired of trying so hard to fit into a place where I don’t belong. Tired of putting on a fake smile and acting as if everything is ok. Tired of trying so hard to live up to everybody’s expectations. Tired of trying so hard to be…

i still remember how excited i was the first time you asked to meet up. how fast my heart was racing while my smile was from ear to ear as i drove home. how happy i got every time you’d call or make a time to meet up again. dropping all my plans or making…

i wonder what went through my moms head the morning i didn’t wake up in time for school. i wonder if she had thought i just slept in, or if i snoozed my alarm, or if i just forgot to turn it on. i wonder if she had thought i possibly could have passed out.…

it was the fact that i was at the peak of my happiness i was finally healing and living life like i never have before i was better, i was finally genuinely happy, i wanted to live …and then i let you in you sucked me in with all of your kind words treated me…

i promised i’d never hurt you again. promised i would always put you before me as i had before promised i would do anything for you promised i never did it intentionally but was wrapped up in my own depression promised it hurt me as much as it hurt you promised it killed me inside…

waves. it comes in waves. some days the waves are calm. i can breathe the fresh air into my open lungs. sway side to side with weightless shoulders. walk about with floating ankles. and the warmth covers my soul just only before the storm happens. and next the waves are a tsunami. being thrown under…

you told me to forget about it. you told me to go on with my life as if nothing ever happened. but how could i do that? how could i forget your body laying on top of me? how could i forget your lips grasping mine? how could i forget your tongue diving in my…

I dream of a world where… Looming in the dark as the shadow takes over becomes unknown. The fake face collapsing over quivering lips, silencing the screams that suffocates our flesh, and  hiding down the slashing pain from the existence of the breath we take, Is no longer reality but a distant nightmare to never…