“it’s okay.”

and i full heartedly believe it.

yet something inside is screaming that it’s not.

screaming for you after all the times i needed you, and you let me down.

as if for some reason now you would finally change,

after i have finally gotten to be okay with it.

but inside i’m not.

this tiny voice in the back of my mind,

is constantly screaming that i’m not.

screaming after all of the heartbreaks.

all of the let downs.

wanting you, needing you, but never receiving you.

i understand.

life gets in the way and some times thing just don’t work out.

i get it.

i truly do.

but my inner child still screams for you.