that sinking feeling

where your whole body goes numb

and you feel weight in your lungs

making it hard to breathe.

arising at any given moment,

when happy,

when out and about,

with other people…

trying to stay carefree,

and suddenly that feeling takes over.

slowly creeping in until it grabs full control over the day.

not even being able to enjoy it anymore,

and feeling guilty for not being outgoing like before.

and yet no matter how many people you’re around,

that sinking feeling comes in…

that feeling we call

loneliness.