Do you ever get so depressed it’s like you’re not even human anymore?

Not enough energy to change out of your pjs so they become your clothes for the day.

Unmotivated to do anything, anything at all.

Too weak to even think about getting up, getting out of bed and into the world.

And the times you absolutely have to get up, it’s literal hell fighting a war inside of you just to get yourself to go to the bathroom.

The minute you get where you need to be, you’re instantly sitting down again using all the energy you can to just keep your body from laying down.

So tired, constantly falling asleep but you don’t fight it because for once your brain isn’t screaming.

You stare into space not remembering what life has to offer.

Eating only because your parents are watching but the energy it takes just to chew and swallow puts you right back to sleep because nothing is fighting for you to stay awake anymore.

Needing a shower but nothing inside of you can get your ass up, so you lay there.

Lay there, thinking of every little thing you should be doing, but instead you’re laying there. 

Stuck in thoughts of how horrible you are.

You’re never going to be good enough.

Nothing you do will ever be good enough…

Your body is froze,

You’re trapped in a place you’ve never known,

Wondering what it’s like to be alive because at this point you just survive.

And although you feel like dying, you just wipe it off with an “i’m okay, just tired” and let them get on with their day.

Because everything is okay.